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  • veruschka
    veruschka wrote a new piece of writing:
    November 21, 2020
    Meatballs
    Meatballs
    Thanks to the impending curfew being enforced in my state, I feel like cooking and baking has become a favorite pastime (plus, Uber Eats was becoming uber expensive).
    I tried to make a childhood favorite for dinner tonight: chickpea meatballs (aka Gondi)...
    • veruschka
      Noodles123 Use this...Trust Noodles
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  • veruschka
    veruschka commented on Noodles123's blog entry.
    November 21, 2020
    Maybe it's an age thing, knowing that the remaining time one has left on earth is better spent with higher quality individuals. Wrangling with rifraf people who bring a whole lot of drama?
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    • veruschka
      BrianOmen Being able to drop someone that quick is definitely a good thing.
      • November 20, 2020
    • veruschka
      Geth This is a good quality. It means you're discerning and know when something doesn't suit you. Better late than never.
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      • · November 20, 2020
    • veruschka
      veruschka Maybe it's an age thing, knowing that the remaining time one has left on earth is better spent with higher quality individuals. Wrangling with rifraf people who bring a whole lot of drama?
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      • November 21, 2020

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    veruschka commented on PersephoneZekk's blog entry.
    November 21, 2020
    Bigger brain?
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    • veruschka
      Noodles123 Many of us suffer from elephantitis of the head!
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      • · November 18, 2020
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        PersephoneZekk Especially as shown on GA DMV licenses
        • November 19, 2020
    • veruschka
      Transylvania90210 What the hell did I just read?
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      • · November 18, 2020
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        PersephoneZekk A new type of writing, the ultimate troll story
        • November 19, 2020
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      veruschka Bigger brain?
      • November 21, 2020
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        PersephoneZekk We wish.
        • November 26, 2020

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    veruschka commented on Noodles123's blog entry.
    November 21, 2020
    Why not just have stronger mental fortitude and ignore their dogma? Seriously. Stand strong with what you believe in (or to quote Trump, "Stand by") because there will come a time where the country is so disgusted with the extreme swing to the left that...  moreWhy not just have stronger mental fortitude and ignore their dogma? Seriously. Stand strong with what you believe in (or to quote Trump, "Stand by") because there will come a time where the country is so disgusted with the extreme swing to the left that they will again vote for someone on the right (i.e. 2016 elections).    less
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      leotiberius Wow you people are just finally noticing; you know they have being doing this for years its just that it is in your face, SMH -_-
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      • · November 18, 2020
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        InternetCaveman Many did notice, you're just generally not allowed to talk about anywhere. But now there's no choice but to talk about it.
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        • · November 18, 2020
      • veruschka
        Noodles123 You do realize that I've been talking about the Illuminati since I was 14 which was in 1985 right? My first idea of them was through a card game called Illuminati and a book in the 1990's called "Behold a Pale Horse" there was a chapter in there that...  moreYou do realize that I've been talking about the Illuminati since I was 14 which was in 1985 right? My first idea of them was through a card game called Illuminati and a book in the 1990's called "Behold a Pale Horse" there was a chapter in there that broke down how to flip a society WORD FOR WORD IT'S WHAT THEY ARE DOING TODAY. So yes some of it have known about this for a long time...The Q Anon are our closest relatives as the UFO Guys were back in the day.  
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        • · November 19, 2020
    • veruschka
      PersephoneZekk You are speaking the truth. It has been going on for many years. I first found out on 9/11.
      • November 20, 2020
    • veruschka
      PersephoneZekk You are speaking the truth. It has been going on for many years. I first found out on 9/11.
      • November 20, 2020
    • veruschka
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      • November 20, 2020
    • veruschka
      veruschka Why not just have stronger mental fortitude and ignore their dogma? Seriously. Stand strong with what you believe in (or to quote Trump, "Stand by") because there will come a time where the country is so disgusted with the extreme swing to the left that...  moreWhy not just have stronger mental fortitude and ignore their dogma? Seriously. Stand strong with what you believe in (or to quote Trump, "Stand by") because there will come a time where the country is so disgusted with the extreme swing to the left that they will again vote for someone on the right (i.e. 2016 elections).    
      • November 21, 2020

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    veruschka commented on Noodles123's blog entry.
    November 17, 2020
    Yard sale?
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      veruschka Yard sale?
      • November 17, 2020

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  • veruschka
    veruschka wrote a new piece of writing:
    November 17, 2020
    Shutting Down Again? : /
    Shutting Down Again? : /
     Whelp, I guess California's rates of viral infection are skyrocketing again (surge #3), so the governor is shutting down indoor dining.

    There is also a travel advisory (nothing they're actually enforcing, but more of a recommendation), which is a...
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    • veruschka
      Noodles123 Don't care about drug addicts, obese, diabetics, genetically ill people to be honest. Society should not hide and stop because of them. It is up to them to quarantine themselves. A HUGE percentage of the dead will be just that over 65+ always ill,...  moreDon't care about drug addicts, obese, diabetics, genetically ill people to be honest. Society should not hide and stop because of them. It is up to them to quarantine themselves. A HUGE percentage of the dead will be just that over 65+ always ill, never exercise, diabetic, fat, smokers, drug users, medication addicted and people who never took care of themselves.  
      • November 17, 2020
    • veruschka
      leotiberius Covid is less of a concern try collaria. LOL
      • November 17, 2020
    • veruschka
      Noodles123 There are literally about 14 inmates on my yard who are positive and 5 of my close partners and several more exposed and ZERO HAVE ANY SYMPTOMS...ZERO...Not even a fucking cough. #covidisalie
      • November 18, 2020

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    veruschka replied to a comment on Noodles123's blog Soooooooooo What If?:
    November 16, 2020
    I also think that expectations are highly unrealistic on the part of these career women when it comes to dating/marriage. As one ages, world views become more set in stone (some of which is accounted for by the decrease in the brain's plasticity with...  moreI also think that expectations are highly unrealistic on the part of these career women when it comes to dating/marriage. As one ages, world views become more set in stone (some of which is accounted for by the decrease in the brain's plasticity with increasing age). In direct contrast, younger girls tend to be more gullible and inexperienced because they haven't faced the realities and hardships that older women have dealt with. I am not saying that one is better than the other, but it certainly does seem to account for men's preference in my community for kittenish "child" brides cloistered by their parents from the outside world. Did not mean to rant (just surprised by this phenomenon existing beyond the confines of a small community).  less

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    veruschka commented on Noodles123's blog entry.
    November 16, 2020
    These is more at play here. I thought it was a phenomenon limited to a certain cultural group (my own community where I grew up); basically, women were becoming more educated than the men and thus demanding more. Mother-in-laws cried foul, saying that...  moreThese is more at play here. I thought it was a phenomenon limited to a certain cultural group (my own community where I grew up); basically, women were becoming more educated than the men and thus demanding more. Mother-in-laws cried foul, saying that modern girls were too rude and entitled (their sons were simple tradesmen with barely a high school education, thick accents, and unable to buy the dream houses/exuberant lifestyles that women were demanding). I now see that this phenomenon is present in many cultures; women want more because they've accomplished more. I also think that women are feeling the pressure of a dual standard: in spite of having accomplished so much, they are still expected to be keepers of the hearth AND be bread winners contributing to the monthly mortgage/cost of living (bring the bacon home and fry it for the whole family); personally, I think feminism did no one any favors here because who is really happy in this scenario? Role expectations are the only thing scrambled here. What women are expecting, unfortunately, is not realistic, leading to a lot of them getting older and alone (and the older one gets, the more stubborn and set in stone world views/expectations become); younger girls tend to be more bright-eyed and gullible due to inexperience, while older women are hardened creatures who have faced more hardship and reality. Not saying one is better than the other, but it certainly does seem to account for men's preference in my community for the proverbial kittenish "child" bride cloistered by her parents.  less
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      Wulfen Yeah most women I've seen on dating sites, I'm just like shit no wonder you're single.
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        Noodles123 Oh I know there's quite a few even a majority...But on the site it literally is educated, successful women...Only thing is their demands don't often go with their looks...I'm not kidding I could throw a muffin in a McDonald's and hit a prettier sweeter...  moreOh I know there's quite a few even a majority...But on the site it literally is educated, successful women...Only thing is their demands don't often go with their looks...I'm not kidding I could throw a muffin in a McDonald's and hit a prettier sweeter woman than what I see sometimes...For all their money they are literally aging at a ridiculous pace...Genetics has not been good to them.  
        • November 16, 2020
    • veruschka
      veruschka These is more at play here. I thought it was a phenomenon limited to a certain cultural group (my own community where I grew up); basically, women were becoming more educated than the men and thus demanding more. Mother-in-laws cried foul, saying that...  moreThese is more at play here. I thought it was a phenomenon limited to a certain cultural group (my own community where I grew up); basically, women were becoming more educated than the men and thus demanding more. Mother-in-laws cried foul, saying that modern girls were too rude and entitled (their sons were simple tradesmen with barely a high school education, thick accents, and unable to buy the dream houses/exuberant lifestyles that women were demanding). I now see that this phenomenon is present in many cultures; women want more because they've accomplished more. I also think that women are feeling the pressure of a dual standard: in spite of having accomplished so much, they are still expected to be keepers of the hearth AND be bread winners contributing to the monthly mortgage/cost of living (bring the bacon home and fry it for the whole family); personally, I think feminism did no one any favors here because who is really happy in this scenario? Role expectations are the only thing scrambled...    less
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        veruschka I also think that expectations are highly unrealistic on the part of these career women when it comes to dating/marriage. As one ages, world views become more set in stone (some of which is accounted for by the decrease in the brain's plasticity with...  moreI also think that expectations are highly unrealistic on the part of these career women when it comes to dating/marriage. As one ages, world views become more set in stone (some of which is accounted for by the decrease in the brain's plasticity with increasing age). In direct contrast, younger girls tend to be more gullible and inexperienced because they haven't faced the realities and hardships that older women have dealt with. I am not saying that one is better than the other, but it certainly does seem to account for men's preference in my community for kittenish "child" brides cloistered by their parents from the outside world. Did not mean to rant (just surprised by this phenomenon existing beyond the confines of a small community).  less
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    veruschka commented on Noodles123's blog entry.
    November 16, 2020
    My parents maintain a conspiracy theory of sorts that this was something to wipe out old people, especially in parts of the world where senior citizens are draining government funds simply by living longer. I think this was biological warfare in...  moreMy parents maintain a conspiracy theory of sorts that this was something to wipe out old people, especially in parts of the world where senior citizens are draining government funds simply by living longer. I think this was biological warfare in retribution against the United States for manipulating a trade deal with China in which China had to pay more tariffs (more advantageous for the United States than China); China knew this would hurt both the United States economically and create unrest/instability. The Chinese have long memories; even if we slighted them 50 years ago, they would remember and strike when the timing was right. I don't for a minute believe that there was any accident at play in introducing this to the world.  less
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      itsyaboi It's not about covid. It was never about covid. It was just a pretense to start the Great Reset.
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      • · November 16, 2020
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      veruschka My parents maintain a conspiracy theory of sorts that this was something to wipe out old people, especially in parts of the world where senior citizens are draining government funds simply by living longer. I think this was biological warfare in...  moreMy parents maintain a conspiracy theory of sorts that this was something to wipe out old people, especially in parts of the world where senior citizens are draining government funds simply by living longer. I think this was biological warfare in retribution against the United States for manipulating a trade deal with China in which China had to pay more tariffs (more advantageous for the United States than China); China knew this would hurt both the United States economically and create unrest/instability. The Chinese have long memories; even if we slighted them 50 years ago, they would remember and strike when the timing was right. I don't for a minute believe that there was any accident at play in introducing this to the world.  less
      • November 16, 2020
    • veruschka
      Noodles123 Combination of idiots and evil ploy....I think once it was out the Chinese decided to harm the world hence why they allowed people from the region to travel OVERSEAS just not to other parts of China...Biggest winner of this? China who has made crazy...  moreCombination of idiots and evil ploy....I think once it was out the Chinese decided to harm the world hence why they allowed people from the region to travel OVERSEAS just not to other parts of China...Biggest winner of this? China who has made crazy sales on terrible protection products that don't work or are fake.  
      • November 16, 2020

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    veruschka commented on Noodles123's blog entry.
    November 15, 2020
    I'm glad that you finally had a semi-positive date. Truly. If you guys have chemistry, broken wings heal over time. And, honestly, better that a girl have a little self-esteem issues vs. over the top narcissism.
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      veruschka I'm glad that you finally had a semi-positive date. Truly. If you guys have chemistry, broken wings heal over time. And, honestly, better that a girl have a little self-esteem issues vs. over the top narcissism.
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        Noodles123 Almost all my dates are good...I can't remember when I've had a bad date where we didn't eat, drink, laugh and talk...ONLY THING that matters though is chemistry...That's what ends up killing it quickly....No one is looking for friends
        • November 15, 2020

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    veruschka commented on Noodles123's blog entry.
    November 15, 2020
    It's the complete opposite with me: they want us not to test so that we can return to work asap & keep working. They do the rapid PCR test (results in 45 minutes), which can yield false negatives. Even when people were testing positive, they would still...  moreIt's the complete opposite with me: they want us not to test so that we can return to work asap & keep working. They do the rapid PCR test (results in 45 minutes), which can yield false negatives. Even when people were testing positive, they would still have us come back to work after a week or two with no need to retest in order to be cleared to come back to work. I think that they just didn't want to have a healthcare worker shortage (read as don't want to pay up to $80/hr for temp nurses).  less
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      veruschka It's the complete opposite with me: they want us not to test so that we can return to work asap & keep working. They do the rapid PCR test (results in 45 minutes), which can yield false negatives. Even when people were testing positive, they would still...  moreIt's the complete opposite with me: they want us not to test so that we can return to work asap & keep working. They do the rapid PCR test (results in 45 minutes), which can yield false negatives. Even when people were testing positive, they would still have us come back to work after a week or two with no need to retest in order to be cleared to come back to work. I think that they just didn't want to have a healthcare worker shortage (read as don't want to pay up to $80/hr for temp nurses).  
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    veruschka commented on Noodles123's blog entry.
    November 13, 2020
    I'm not going to lie and say that children are the light and joy in my life; but I will say that I have become a better, more productive human being as a result of their existence. I have changed on a chemical level as well; gotta love all these hormones...  moreI'm not going to lie and say that children are the light and joy in my life; but I will say that I have become a better, more productive human being as a result of their existence. I have changed on a chemical level as well; gotta love all these hormones coursing through me (feel like a pregnant super hero these days).  less
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      Denadel I know that freedom.is very important to you and you see children as a burden but I honestly don't see things that way. The only freedom I have lost, (getting up and just going off somewhere on my own) is a freedom that I didn't have in the first place...  moreI know that freedom.is very important to you and you see children as a burden but I honestly don't see things that way. The only freedom I have lost, (getting up and just going off somewhere on my own) is a freedom that I didn't have in the first place due to lack of finances. I've not actually lost out.  
      • November 13, 2020
    • veruschka
      InternetCaveman Marriage is certainly of no value if you're a man these days, and in many cases you'll have your kids and most of your assets taken from you, but kids themselves are not the problem.
      • November 13, 2020
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      veruschka I'm not going to lie and say that children are the light and joy in my life; but I will say that I have become a better, more productive human being as a result of their existence. I have changed on a chemical level as well; gotta love all these hormones...  moreI'm not going to lie and say that children are the light and joy in my life; but I will say that I have become a better, more productive human being as a result of their existence. I have changed on a chemical level as well; gotta love all these hormones coursing through me (feel like a pregnant super hero these days).  
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        Noodles123 Don't make me link all your angry, sad, miserable posts about marriage and children....Temporary Chemical Bliss does not weigh the same in the long term...I've known you going on 17 years and choices were made and paths were followed...Often our ego and...  moreDon't make me link all your angry, sad, miserable posts about marriage and children....Temporary Chemical Bliss does not weigh the same in the long term...I've known you going on 17 years and choices were made and paths were followed...Often our ego and brains downplay the bad and up the good so that we don't feel stupid for our decisions...SELECTIVE MEMORY...As a hard science girl you should know that the mind wraps around it's own perception and forgets the bad to be able to function.  
        • November 14, 2020
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      Noodles123 No one is attacking ANYONE'S children or marriage...This is pretty much in general...Although I also think many people go through stages of bliss followed by anger, sadness and heartache...That's why I think it's better to pass on it than to have if...  moreNo one is attacking ANYONE'S children or marriage...This is pretty much in general...Although I also think many people go through stages of bliss followed by anger, sadness and heartache...That's why I think it's better to pass on it than to have if weighed out properly.  
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        Geth For what it's worth I don't feel attacked whatsoever, I just disagreed on a point. You're fine Noodles.
        • November 14, 2020
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      itsyaboi Genesis 2:22-24  
      "And the rib that the  Lord  God had taken from the man he made into a woman and brought her to the man. Then the man said, “This at last is bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called Woman, because she was taken...  more      Genesis 2:22-24  
      "And the rib that the  Lord  God had taken from the man he made into a woman and brought her to the man. Then the man said, “This at last is bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called Woman, because she was taken out of Man.” Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh."  You're unhappy because you defile your soul with the flesh of whores and harlots. Walk the path of the Lord and you will find everlasting bliss in His light.  less
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    veruschka commented on Denadel's blog entry.
    November 13, 2020
    I am so sorry you went through all this, but you are a rockstar for standing strong and extricating yourself and your daughter from the situation (it's also very good that he got help; not many people are willing to do it, let alone admit that they have...  moreI am so sorry you went through all this, but you are a rockstar for standing strong and extricating yourself and your daughter from the situation (it's also very good that he got help; not many people are willing to do it, let alone admit that they have a problem in the first place). Redundancy is also very hard, especially during the pandemic, but you're smart and strong. Hang in there. Praying for you and your family.  less
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      BrianOmen I don't know if you believe in a higher power......if you do make sure to pray to them. I used to be a junkie/alcoholic. Rehab puts the addiction on pause. The true test is how one copes after it. I've been clean for 8 years. He has to change for him...  moreI don't know if you believe in a higher power......if you do make sure to pray to them. I used to be a junkie/alcoholic. Rehab puts the addiction on pause. The true test is how one copes after it. I've been clean for 8 years. He has to change for him though......one thing I can say from reading this is you stated you guys had arguments......that's an easy excuse for an addict to convince themselves to use again. The fact that he didn't is a very very good sign.  
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        Denadel Thank you. There are some days where I get terrified that he will have a relapse but I have to remind myself that worrying about it won't change it if it does happen and that I have to do my best to trust him. I think he found being out very hard at...  moreThank you. There are some days where I get terrified that he will have a relapse but I have to remind myself that worrying about it won't change it if it does happen and that I have to do my best to trust him. I think he found being out very hard at first but he has settled down now and I'm hopeful that he will talk to me if things are getting bad. Thank you for your advice, iris appreciated and I'm sorry that you have had to go through it too  
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        Denadel Also, congratulations on being clean for eight years, that's really impressive
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        BrianOmen I did it to myself. Nothing for anyone to be sorry about. You do need to tell him if he has cravings to come to you immediately. Be prepared for him to get very emotional at times. Its actually good because it's part of recovery. Does he workout at all?...  moreI did it to myself. Nothing for anyone to be sorry about. You do need to tell him if he has cravings to come to you immediately. Be prepared for him to get very emotional at times. Its actually good because it's part of recovery. Does he workout at all? If not, suggest it. I worked out awhile I was an addict but I really latched onto it once I got sober. It can become a drug.  
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      veruschka I am so sorry you went through all this, but you are a rockstar for standing strong and extricating yourself and your daughter from the situation (it's also very good that he got help; not many people are willing to do it, let alone admit that they have...  moreI am so sorry you went through all this, but you are a rockstar for standing strong and extricating yourself and your daughter from the situation (it's also very good that he got help; not many people are willing to do it, let alone admit that they have a problem in the first place). Redundancy is also very hard, especially during the pandemic, but you're smart and strong. Hang in there. Praying for you and your family.  
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        Denadel Thank you, that's very kind. I am hopeful that things continue to improve and I'm not scared to speak up if they don't. I am really hoping that I find another job soon. I hope that all is well for you and that home life is kinder to you these days
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      CountDarkness Hope everything turns out well
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    It has been quite a while since I last wrote on here and there have been an enormous amount of changes. I have just read my last entry and my head almost feels like it is spinning when I think of where I was and where I now am.

    I left my husband. He c...

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    She's 6 and possibly more stubborn/headstrong than me. My own mother says to give her attention and work with her, so like you say it'll get figured out in time. Thanks for the moral support

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